Sunday, 28 January 2007

Going away!!

Tomorrow I am Going Away, for Five Days!
On my Own...
Leaving Mark and the kids behind...
And I Can't Wait...
Being a staff intern at church does have its perks, one of which is being invited to attend the Vineyard National Leaders' Conference, all expenses paid...
I am so excited and cannot wait to have some time to really 'hang out' with God, worship Him, wait on Him, and see what He has to reveal to me. I'm looking forward to having an opportunity to practise listening to Him, and hopefully also to allow Him to speak into other people's lives through me...
And I'm also really looking forward to spending quality time with people from church, and, yes, with myself! I know this may sound indulgent and somewhat introspective; but I've only recently started to really get to know (or rather rediscover) myself, and realise that I actually quite like myself *grin*... This is completely God's work in me, as not even a year ago, my self-esteem was pretty rock-bottom and I disliked myself with a passion!!
I think maybe the fact that every spare minute of "space" (from the kids and from the rush of every day life) is a little precious treasure, has something to do with desperately wanting to make the most of each of these moments spent alone and in God's company. And as I've started relishing those times, God has done an amazing healing work in me, restoring my self-esteem and image, and replacing my self-loathing with increasing self-respect. I'm not "there" yet but I've come a LOOOONG way!
So, for all these reasons, and many more I'm sure, I feel incredibly blessed and priviledged to be given this opportunity. My expectations of this time away are quite high and there is a danger in that, that there may be some disappointment along the line.
My challenge to myself therefore, is to come back from the conference and be able to share with those of you who will listen, some of what God has laid on my heart during my time away. Kind of like an 'accountability' thing.
So I guess I'll say goodbye for now, and see you next week end!
To be continued...

8 comments:

  1. WOW! Have a great time. I'm looking forward to hearing all about it.

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  2. H: hey silly, aren't you supposed to be at school??!
    Your time will come, don't you worry. And I recall talking about New Wine?...
    Love you, have a good positive week
    xxx

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  3. oh and i wanted to say i am so glad about you feeling more healthy and having more self love - it is encouraging story that has helped rekindle hope and encouragement in my own shared story...

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  4. Ok yeah, you have a point. New Wine will be awesome.
    Have a great week!!
    h xxxxxx

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  5. Blessings on your time with the Lord and with your brothers and sisters...sounds divine. :)

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  6. Sounds like fun--I am going to Palm Springs with my best friend in Feb.--just the two of us and my baby. Neither of us have ever done anything like this since we each began married life and we're both looking forward to a REAL vacation--sunshine, the laptop, and a stack of books :)

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